I don't have much to say these days

I don't have much to say these days .. so true.  I am always a chatty person, which makes me think the silence is bad. Even when I go to my WW meeting. I don't say anything. I sit and think and think and nothing to say out loud (only think inside my head .. what is happening)??  It seems that I am gaining weight at a rate of about 2 lbs a week. I'm not kidding.  I am making good choices, I am exercising - I am not sure what is happening.  I am hoping it is my thyroid slowing down but everything feels out of control.  I am up about 6 lbs since my dad died.  This is a fact.  How do I find my way back? It feels like a slippery slope. I am going to meetings and paying to weigh but everything else seems moot.  I am stressed about work, stressed about Dolly and everything else (my dad dying, worrying about my mom, not taking care of myself,  new job with new staff, working long hours, stressing about mortgage payments, figuring out what albinism will mean for Dolly, feeling guilt about not being home with the kids when my neighbour says: "I wouldn't get a nanny if she was anything like your nanny" - huh???).  Maybe things will find their normal again soon.  In the meantime, trying to get some sleep and not eat the easter bunnies.  

Taking Dolly to see genetics on Wednesday and social work to develop an early intervention plan.