MRI, MRI

I have been too busy.  Too busy to post.  So here is my short summary:

First and most important, we took Dolly to the second neurologist appointment at the Sick Kids hospital.  The second neurologist basically said - we can't ignore these findings .. we don't know if it is anything or not .. the ultrasound is a soft assessment and we cannot have any definitive answers without the MRI - specifically, we cannot rule out a mass (aka tumor) without the MRI.  So I said, sign us up!  Also please note that I'm holding my breathe the entire time.  It is a 3 month waiting period ... so now we wait. Although my pediatrician was very upset about the wait and since she is on staff at the hospital said she would expedite the process.  I asked about risks - apparently none other than the sedation process.  So now I wait and wait and wring my hands. I thought we were in the clear. I thought we had ruled it out. Now we are waiting again.  

When the health of my little one is in question, everything else seems so unimportant. Like the job. I was really looking forward to going back to work - and now the 3 month waiting period coincides with exactly the same amount of time I have left before I go back to work.  What if something is really wrong with Dolly? What will I do? I cannot lose her. Not now.  

As I said, not important - but the job interview was a bust. I totally screwed it up.  However, I don't think it was the right fit for me given the nature of the questions.  Another job opportunity has popped up. I've been offered a one year succondment in a management job when I go back - although not on paper yet, promising.  I did discuss my work-family priorities and that I needed to be home at times (esp. since I see how managers work long hours) - and they were very supportive of my needs.

We hired a nanny. I pulled Mister from daycare and then cried right after I told the daycare director. We love the daycare and I know he does too.  It will be a difficult transition for him - leaving his friends.  However, Dolly cannot go to daycare with her greater risk for respiratory problems. I do remember how sick Mister was (every week) and the doctor said we just cannot do that to Dolly. I agree.  So the nanny will start one day a week in the fall to give me a break and then full-time when I get back to work.  

Three weeks until we move. I'm not ready at all.  Doing lots of purging and making all the calls but haven't started packing yet.

As for WW, I haven't been tracking and I use food to cope.  I will go to the meeting this weekend but I'm not expecting miracles. I seem to be hovering around my 10% loss of 21 lbs.  I am stuck.  I guess it is better than up 21 lbs.