George: You are Amazing!!

I'm still dreaming of George. It was the best concert of my life. I could barely contain my excitement.  George ... you are my man!!

The Lawyer, the Banker, the Candlestick Maker ...

So we are home owners. It is official.  This is our seventh house we bid on (lucky number seven). I think we are still in shock. Six times it didn't work so why would it work this time? I love the house. It is perfect. Beautiful kitchen.  Three bedrooms. Two bathrooms. Detached. A yard.  Still, however, in shock.  It feels like I have been on the phone all day, every day trying to secure all the staff we need to get this house going ... the banker, the lawyer, the movers, the roofer (we need to put a new roof on), the insurer, etc.... It is never ending.  

In other news, I lost two pounds this week.  I can only attribute it to dancing my feet off at the George Michael concert at the ACC. I jumped, I screamed, I danced for two hours. I must have earned a lot of activity points to counteract my two razz-matinis that I downed before hand!   I love George!!! Best concert of my life, by far. And two pounds to boot.

Good News

I took Dolly to see the neurologist on Friday.  The doctor said that she didn't think Dolly had a tumor because she would be quite sick otherwise.  She said babies with tumors, you just know.  The doctor thinks it is just isolated nystagmus (meaning vision only not brain related).  We did an ultrasound through Dolly's soft spot to rule out some other conditions but so far everything seems okay (with the exception of the nystagmus).  I am see the world leader of this condition in November.  A big sigh of relief.   She could still have serious vision problems even blindness, but these are conditions that are manageable.  

And, my other news, yesterday we bought a house.  A lovely three-bedroom detached brick house in the Upper Beaches.  I'm in shock - happy and scared all at the same time.  My agent said it's kind of like deciding to have kids. There never is a perfect time when you're financially stable etc... you just have to jump in and do it.  And so here I go.  Ready, set, JUMP!

Friday is the day

Well, we heard back from the neurologist.  Friday is the day.  I'm relieved to have her appointment expedited.  Last I spoke with the receptionist the waiting period was two months unless the neurologist deemed it urgent.  In some ways I'm glad to be in quickly but in others I know that makes Dolly's case urgent.  I don't imagine we'll have the MRI on Friday but rather a consultation regarding the next steps.   Dolly seems to be in good spirits and you wouldn't guess that anything was wrong with the exception of her eye movements.  

I feel distracted. Yesterday I fell of the treadmill (and it really wasn't going fast or steep), just deep in thought and not paying attention to what I was doing.  I'm also eating like a mountain of food (yesterday alone I had two pieces of cake, rice pudding, brie and wine .... um, I think I will be up at the scale this week : 0 ). 

Today I'm off for minor surgery with a plastic surgeon.  I'm having three moles removed that the doctor and dermatologist refused to do since the roots were too deep.  So here I am at a plastic surgeon ... wondering if I could slip into conversation how much a tummy tuck would cost?? hee hee.  I would never do it but it's lovely to dream sometimes. 

Mommy Fat

Today I am reflecting on my weight loss journey.  Thinking that being a mom by necessity means gaining and losing weight (with the exception of those with fantastic genes that never gain weight during pregnancy other than the baby itself).  This time, I will lose the weight for good.  No more mommy fat for me!!

I had a great weekend.  Hubby let me have some 'free' time.  I went to the spa on Friday for a hot stone massage, facial and a Brazilian (thank goodness for the 'no scream cream').  Saturday we had a date night - saw the movie 'Wanted', which was action packed - and even splurged on some popcorn with real butter.  Flex points!  And Sunday we went for a nice long walk to High Park and hubby kept dolly strapped to him most the day in the bjorn to give me a break.  I'm also happy to report that Dolly is sleeping through the night now.  About five nights running.  I can't remember when I had such good sleeps. 

Goals for today: stop thinking about Dolly's eyes and the what-ifs .. still waiting to hear on the neurology appointment (hopefully by tomorrow we will have one), drink water, journal all my food intake.   

Ten Percent

Yep, I did it. I lost 10% of my total body weight .. that is 21 lbs in 16 weeks. Wowzers. It is amazing that I did it given all the stress of these past two weeks.  I guess something is going right. Thank you Weight Watchers.  

The Unexpected

I took Dolly to the eye specialist this week.  We were (and still are) scheduled for another specialist in November (long waiting period). However, my pediatrician was not happy about the long wait and found another pediatric opthamologist to have a look at Dolly's eyes.  The doctor said there is nothing wrong structurally with Dolly's eyes.  Rather, he thinks it is neurological and we are now waiting for an appointment with the Hospital for Sick Children so Dolly can have a Cat Scan/MRI.  He said he thinks it is a condition called "nystagmus", which is jerky eye movements.  Lots of children in his practice with this condition grow up to have normal vision and others very bad vision such that they cannot legally drive.  These seem like things I can handle.  When I asked him to write down for me the word "nystagmus" (because he kept saying it really fast and I knew I would forget it) he told me not to panic. If I went home and googled this word then I would see 'brain tumors'.  Big pause here.  I spent the whole way home on the subway crying -- strangers looking at me.  When I finally got home and saw my neighbour who asked me how it went, I was sobbing.  I can't imagine anything happening to my little one.  It never crossed my mind that she might have a brain tumor.  So now we wait.  I'm praying for the best of these situations. 

In the meantime, I have completely fallen off the Weight Watchers wagon.  I never drink my points and have been indulging in a few glasses of wine these past couple of days, and loading up on carbs (read bread and cheese).  I just can't seem to take care of myself and the babes.