Winter Blahs

So, as  you can probably tell, I don't actually post here often.  I always tried to keep a diary and it never worked. Somehow I thought an e-journal might be more inspiring for me to keep track of the ups and downs of baby #2.  I guess I've never been much of a 'recorder'.  So what is new with me? Well, it's be a long winter, too long.  Since Dolly was born early and at risk for all kinds of things, I basically spent every single day cooped up inside with her. Not that I'm complaining too much - I love the one-on-one bonding time but I am wishing that spring would sprung.  I started finally getting out this week. I went to a moms group held by the Public Health office in my area. I kind of felt like a stranger in a new world.  Maybe it's all my days of isolation? There were about 14 moms with babies ranging from 4 weeks to 6 months.  I'm usually a chatty, social person but I pretty much stayed quiet the whole time and listened to them babble about sleeping books and where to buy the best nursing bra etc.... and I felt like I just didn't fit in.  I'm starting to wonder what is wrong with me. I told my husband last night that I wouldn't be going back.  I don't think I will find friendships there ... I don't know why.  Maybe it is my thyroid. I continue to struggle with what they thought was post-pregnancy thryoiditis but the specialist last week wondered if it might be Graves Disease.  In any case, I had post-partum depression with my first child and I'm starting to wonder if that might be the case now ... although I kept tell myself that it was and is much better this time.  My family physician was copied on the results of my last blood test and she has called me in. I'm hoping she will provide me with some clarity and help me understand what is happening.   Maybe it is the winter blahs .... one thing I noticed yesterday was all the free time the moms kept talking about 'me time'.  I thought and actually said, 'am I the only one without me time'?  soooo I decided to join Weight Watchers and will go to my first meeting this Saturday. Maybe that will help pull me out of a slump, or maybe I will feel like a stranger among many again this Saturday.  Uh-oh, I think I have to journal my food.  I haven't proven to be very good at recording, have I???