On Track

So I managed to lose 0.6 lbs last week and 1.0 lb this week, for a total of 1.6 lbs in two weeks. It may not seem like a lot but two losses in a row is better than my ongoing consecutive gains. 

And importantly, today I confirmed that my thyroid is too slow (again), which may explain some of my weight gain (since they lowered the dose last). I will fill the prescription tomorrow and cross my fingers while I continue to stay OP.

Still waiting on the CNIB to come to the house and do the assessment on Dolly.

Mister turned four this week (and still a loss despite the birthday cake)!

Hours

After my last post, my grandmother told me at Easter dinner that I looked fat.  I'm not kidding.  Her words were: "You look fat. You used to look okay before your dad died, what happened?".  I'm not kidding.  

At least it motivated me to get on the treadmill when I got home.

I think I'm going to look on-line for some motivational tapes.  Something like: "do not eat" (I'm kidding ... sort of).

I don't have much to say these days

I don't have much to say these days .. so true.  I am always a chatty person, which makes me think the silence is bad. Even when I go to my WW meeting. I don't say anything. I sit and think and think and nothing to say out loud (only think inside my head .. what is happening)??  It seems that I am gaining weight at a rate of about 2 lbs a week. I'm not kidding.  I am making good choices, I am exercising - I am not sure what is happening.  I am hoping it is my thyroid slowing down but everything feels out of control.  I am up about 6 lbs since my dad died.  This is a fact.  How do I find my way back? It feels like a slippery slope. I am going to meetings and paying to weigh but everything else seems moot.  I am stressed about work, stressed about Dolly and everything else (my dad dying, worrying about my mom, not taking care of myself,  new job with new staff, working long hours, stressing about mortgage payments, figuring out what albinism will mean for Dolly, feeling guilt about not being home with the kids when my neighbour says: "I wouldn't get a nanny if she was anything like your nanny" - huh???).  Maybe things will find their normal again soon.  In the meantime, trying to get some sleep and not eat the easter bunnies.  

Taking Dolly to see genetics on Wednesday and social work to develop an early intervention plan.