Back in the Game

So I'm back from my long holiday in Algonquin Park. It rained a lot - so we spent much of the time indoors with the kids, which wasn't always easy. Nonetheless, it was nice to get away as a family and spend some time out of the city.  

While I was away, I got a call for a job interview. It is this Thursday. I'm terrified.  First, I still have baby mush brain. I feel like I can't hold an articulate conversation - sometimes I forget what I'm saying .. my memory is terrible lately.  I am at a total disadvantage in that I don't have any of my projects in front of me to review.  I'm spending the next few days trying to re-connect with my work.  I am finding myself talking out loud to myself, yes ... rehearsing my explanations.  I'm sure it will be fine.  The strange thing is that the interview is only an hour. Usually with government interviews there is a test beforehand and then a few hours of conversation ... so I'm a little worried that I only have 1 hour to impress the judges.  

Okay, second, I'm still fat. Yes, there I said it. None of my pre-pregnancy clothes fit. I don't have a thing to wear. I can't get my suits on ... well, the jackets don't close and my skirts don't zip up all the way. So I have two days to find something (stores closed today with the civic holiday).  I have lost almost 25 lbs with Weight Watchers and was feeling good about myself ... until I tried on those suits.  I did fall of the wagon a bit during holiday week (okay, a lot ... drank copious amounts of wine once the kids were asleep and ate brie, crackers, ice cream etc... didn't journal .. however, I only gained about a pound and 1/2 once I stepped on the scale at home ... and will work this week to get it off before Saturday's weigh in ... I figure we only vacation once a year, it was worth it).  Sorry for my rambling ... back to the issue at hand. I need to find something to wear but I don't want to spend too much as I'm hoping to lose more weight. 

Third. I look like a mom on mat leave. I haven't been taking care of myself.  This order of business means I'm scheduling an appointment for a colour and highlights, and an eyebrow wax and a pedi/mani. I am out to impress. I didn't colour my hair while pregnant (obvious) and I haven't been able to justify the expense with the babes. I have been using over the counter dye jobs.  So it's time to get some professional help here.  I need it!!

George: You are Amazing!!

I'm still dreaming of George. It was the best concert of my life. I could barely contain my excitement.  George ... you are my man!!

The Lawyer, the Banker, the Candlestick Maker ...

So we are home owners. It is official.  This is our seventh house we bid on (lucky number seven). I think we are still in shock. Six times it didn't work so why would it work this time? I love the house. It is perfect. Beautiful kitchen.  Three bedrooms. Two bathrooms. Detached. A yard.  Still, however, in shock.  It feels like I have been on the phone all day, every day trying to secure all the staff we need to get this house going ... the banker, the lawyer, the movers, the roofer (we need to put a new roof on), the insurer, etc.... It is never ending.  

In other news, I lost two pounds this week.  I can only attribute it to dancing my feet off at the George Michael concert at the ACC. I jumped, I screamed, I danced for two hours. I must have earned a lot of activity points to counteract my two razz-matinis that I downed before hand!   I love George!!! Best concert of my life, by far. And two pounds to boot.

Good News

I took Dolly to see the neurologist on Friday.  The doctor said that she didn't think Dolly had a tumor because she would be quite sick otherwise.  She said babies with tumors, you just know.  The doctor thinks it is just isolated nystagmus (meaning vision only not brain related).  We did an ultrasound through Dolly's soft spot to rule out some other conditions but so far everything seems okay (with the exception of the nystagmus).  I am see the world leader of this condition in November.  A big sigh of relief.   She could still have serious vision problems even blindness, but these are conditions that are manageable.  

And, my other news, yesterday we bought a house.  A lovely three-bedroom detached brick house in the Upper Beaches.  I'm in shock - happy and scared all at the same time.  My agent said it's kind of like deciding to have kids. There never is a perfect time when you're financially stable etc... you just have to jump in and do it.  And so here I go.  Ready, set, JUMP!

Friday is the day

Well, we heard back from the neurologist.  Friday is the day.  I'm relieved to have her appointment expedited.  Last I spoke with the receptionist the waiting period was two months unless the neurologist deemed it urgent.  In some ways I'm glad to be in quickly but in others I know that makes Dolly's case urgent.  I don't imagine we'll have the MRI on Friday but rather a consultation regarding the next steps.   Dolly seems to be in good spirits and you wouldn't guess that anything was wrong with the exception of her eye movements.  

I feel distracted. Yesterday I fell of the treadmill (and it really wasn't going fast or steep), just deep in thought and not paying attention to what I was doing.  I'm also eating like a mountain of food (yesterday alone I had two pieces of cake, rice pudding, brie and wine .... um, I think I will be up at the scale this week : 0 ). 

Today I'm off for minor surgery with a plastic surgeon.  I'm having three moles removed that the doctor and dermatologist refused to do since the roots were too deep.  So here I am at a plastic surgeon ... wondering if I could slip into conversation how much a tummy tuck would cost?? hee hee.  I would never do it but it's lovely to dream sometimes. 

Mommy Fat

Today I am reflecting on my weight loss journey.  Thinking that being a mom by necessity means gaining and losing weight (with the exception of those with fantastic genes that never gain weight during pregnancy other than the baby itself).  This time, I will lose the weight for good.  No more mommy fat for me!!

I had a great weekend.  Hubby let me have some 'free' time.  I went to the spa on Friday for a hot stone massage, facial and a Brazilian (thank goodness for the 'no scream cream').  Saturday we had a date night - saw the movie 'Wanted', which was action packed - and even splurged on some popcorn with real butter.  Flex points!  And Sunday we went for a nice long walk to High Park and hubby kept dolly strapped to him most the day in the bjorn to give me a break.  I'm also happy to report that Dolly is sleeping through the night now.  About five nights running.  I can't remember when I had such good sleeps. 

Goals for today: stop thinking about Dolly's eyes and the what-ifs .. still waiting to hear on the neurology appointment (hopefully by tomorrow we will have one), drink water, journal all my food intake.   

Ten Percent

Yep, I did it. I lost 10% of my total body weight .. that is 21 lbs in 16 weeks. Wowzers. It is amazing that I did it given all the stress of these past two weeks.  I guess something is going right. Thank you Weight Watchers.